the moment i realized how valuable my energy is, was the same moment i started investing in myself. self care is the best care. and i doubled down. all i ever needed was mySELF. faith in mySELF, belief in mySELF, kindness to mySELF and know my worth to mySELF.
i am what is known as a HSP(highly sensitive person, a highly sensitive person (HSP) is someone who is thought to have an increased or deeper central nervous system sensitivity to physical, emotional, or social stimuli. Some refer to this as having sensory processing sensitivity, or SPS for short).
high sensitivity is a personality trait that involves increased responsiveness to both positive and negative influences. social stress is perceived as more taxing to most people than other types of stress. this kind of stress can be particularly difficult for someone who can perceive many different ways that things could go wrong in a conflict, for example, or can perceive hostility or tension where others may not notice it. so in short it’s a curse and a blessing. but i go with the blessing and turn that into my super power. so i changed HSP to mean HEIGHTENED SUPER POWER. the acronym hasn’t been approved yet, so don’t quote me.
i have always been sensitive and also have been told by family, when i was younger that, you guessed it. “you’re too sensitive”. in my younger years it wasn’t hard at all to get me going. ask my brother. he was the epitome of what it is to have a BIG BROTHER. he took all his frustration out on me verbally but when he was hurt, i never turned my back on him. now if that’s not the definition of BROTHERLY LOVE, i don’t know what is. the proverbial joke was always on ME.
so how did i become to be a part of a collective of HSP superhero’s. you guessed it again.
having gone through some darkness made me perceptive. i had a glimpse at a very young age of what the world was really like and who i did not want to be. i knew then, that what happened to me would never happen to anyone i bring into this 🌍 earth.. NAHHHH… not on my watch, NEVAAAA..
The Creator and The Divine Universe had bigger plans for me and instilled in me a resilience you can only dream of. the darker the adversary the stronger i got. but underneath the armor i donned i remained humble and still. as i got older i started to see how i changed around certain people. like some friends made me feel less than or others i would have immense energy around. i was not aware that some were only around to steal my energy, so i wouldn’t feel my self. the others added and or matched my energy. so it intensified. i was always magnetically drawn to my energy matchers. their vibe was my vibe. their flow was my flow.
CHILD HOOD TRAUMA.
as i evolved i realized who was worth my energy. i realized my energy is worth it’s weight in gold. my energy is my SUPER POWER. and it should always be treated as such.
beware of the energy vamps
they are the ones that know the true value of your energy and will suck you dry. just being around them will leave you feeling worthless and depressed. the only way to get a refund on that energy is to cut the cord that attaches you. forgive them…i know, here i go again with that forgiveness bs again. it works gosh darn it, forgive yourself. and love them from afar. you can’t save everyone unfortunately. but you can make a choice to save yourself. just like they had a choice to not be a ENERGY VAMP. but tomato, tomatoe. that’s neither here nor there.
in this world, on this earth we all have a CHOICE. you have to treat your energy like currency. it holds all that is your essence. it holds all your POWER. not everyone is deserving to be in your energy when they don’t appreciate its value. it’s like giving your energy out at a discounted price. your energy is PRICELESS.
i treat my energy like it’s a BASQUIAT one of ones (for those who don’t know who Jean-Michel Basquiat is…his paintings go for over 8million, JayZ has an original in his kitchen, where his kids eat cheerios) i have to sus you out before you can even get an ounce of my energy. i know what my energy is worth and most can’t even afford a milliliter of it.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR ENERGY IS WORTH??
if i were you i would start doing the math. you may need to cut some attachment cords and get your energy refunds A$AP ROCKY.
dear 📔 diary,ᵗᵒ ʷʰᵒᵐ ⁱᵗ ᵐᵃʸ ᶜᵒⁿᶜᵉʳⁿ:…. 