the moment i realized how valuable my energy is, was the same moment i started investing in myself. self care is the best care. and i doubled down. all i ever needed was mySELF. faith in mySELF, belief in mySELF, kindness to mySELF and know my worth to mySELF.
i am what is known as a HSP(highly sensitive person, a highly sensitive person (HSP) is someone who is thought to have an increased or deeper central nervous system sensitivity to physical, emotional, or social stimuli. Some refer to this as having sensory processing sensitivity, or SPS for short).
high sensitivity is a personality trait that involves increased responsiveness to both positive and negative influences. social stress is perceived as more taxing to most people than other types of stress. this kind of stress can be particularly difficult for someone who can perceive many different ways that things could go wrong in a conflict, for example, or can perceive hostility or tension where others may not notice it. so in short it’s a curse and a blessing. but i go with the blessing and turn that into my super power. so i changed HSP to mean HEIGHTENED SUPER POWER. the acronym hasn’t been approved yet, so don’t quote me.
i have always been sensitive and also have been told by family, when i was younger that, you guessed it. “you’re too sensitive”. in my younger years it wasn’t hard at all to get me going. ask my brother. he was the epitome of what it is to have a BIG BROTHER. he took all his frustration out on me verbally but when he was hurt, i never turned my back on him. now if that’s not the definition of BROTHERLY LOVE, i don’t know what is. the proverbial joke was always on ME.
so how did i become to be a part of a collective of HSP superhero’s. you guessed it again.
having gone through some darkness made me perceptive. i had a glimpse at a very young age of what the world was really like and who i did not want to be. i knew then, that what happened to me would never happen to anyone i bring into this 🌍 earth.. NAHHHH… not on my watch, NEVAAAA..
The Creator and The Divine Universe had bigger plans for me and instilled in me a resilience you can only dream of. the darker the adversary the stronger i got. but underneath the armor i donned i remained humble and still. as i got older i started to see how i changed around certain people. like some friends made me feel less than or others i would have immense energy around. i was not aware that some were only around to steal my energy, so i wouldn’t feel my self. the others added and or matched my energy. so it intensified. i was always magnetically drawn to my energy matchers. their vibe was my vibe. their flow was my flow.
CHILD HOOD TRAUMA.
as i evolved i realized who was worth my energy. i realized my energy is worth it’s weight in gold. my energy is my SUPER POWER. and it should always be treated as such.
beware of the energy vamps
they are the ones that know the true value of your energy and will suck you dry. just being around them will leave you feeling worthless and depressed. the only way to get a refund on that energy is to cut the cord that attaches you. forgive them…i know, here i go again with that forgiveness bs again. it works gosh darn it, forgive yourself. and love them from afar. you can’t save everyone unfortunately. but you can make a choice to save yourself. just like they had a choice to not be a ENERGY VAMP. but tomato, tomatoe. that’s neither here nor there.
in this world, on this earth we all have a CHOICE. you have to treat your energy like currency. it holds all that is your essence. it holds all your POWER. not everyone is deserving to be in your energy when they don’t appreciate its value. it’s like giving your energy out at a discounted price. your energy is PRICELESS.
i treat my energy like it’s a BASQUIAT one of ones (for those who don’t know who Jean-Michel Basquiat is…his paintings go for over 8million, JayZ has an original in his kitchen, where his kids eat cheerios) i have to sus you out before you can even get an ounce of my energy. i know what my energy is worth and most can’t even afford a milliliter of it.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR ENERGY IS WORTH??
if i were you i would start doing the math. you may need to cut some attachment cords and get your energy refunds A$AP ROCKY.
dear 📔 diary, to whom it may concern: everyone suffers from some type of anxiety or depression….everyONE!!
Going through Anxiety or Depression or any other Psychological Condition doesn’t make you unloveable-it makes you HUMAN.Seth J Gillihan
WE ARE HUMAN.
most importantly we are ONE!!
we MUST be compassionate, patient and kind to every HUMAN we come in contact with. regardless of race, gender, economic status, demographic, sexual preference, social status. whatever bias society has created that we then fall victim to and use to divide us. we MUST be accepting of ALL HUMANS.
this is not a suggestion, this should be our main focus on the DAILY!! (but don’t take my advice, i just want to better your life… so once again. I COME IN ☮️ PEACE✌️)
all humans brought to this Earth are fighting an internal battle we sometimes couldn’t even fathom. some in public. most in private. but it is a battle that we choose to overcome, nonetheless, hopefully in this lifetime.
since we are in an era of such darkness along with all these advancements in technology it creates Mental Disorders, that are more prevalent than ever before.
i always say the BRAIN is a powerful muscle. if it isn’t conditioned properly and given the “nutrients” and “workout” that it needs to grow with us and for us. and instead is filled with negativity from social media, beliefs that are put on us by society and just garbage that are but on us by labels and false narratives. it becomes our worst enemy.
pharmaceuticals may work but that should only be used for a short term. it is only putting a band aid on what the root cause is. if you do not get to the root cause of your programmed negative thinking. ask yourself…when was the first time i felt this way?? and really dig deep and do the work required. you will never fully HEAL. you will be stuck in a cycle of up and downs your entire life. but then we are made to believe that you need more pharmaceuticals or you have to up your dose. your body is becoming immune. (yeah, immune to the BS)
society as a whole has failed many of us. and we need to take our power back. we need to heal ourselves which then in a whole heals others and it’s a chain of healing that’s literally generational. it’s breaking curses that go back thousands of years. (don’t believe me, read a BOOK… i dare YOU!)
if all humans were just a tad more aware of how they treated every human they came in contact with. (ummm, i’m pretty positive that we would have an active hand in healing the WORLD!! NO CAP!!)
the fact that humans base their mental health off of how they should be loved should show us just how much more LOVE we should give to EVERY HUMAN PERIOD!! (but, NOOOO we do the opposite, cause that makes all the sense)
i embrace everyone around me with a smile and love in my heart because that is what The Creator would do and expects the same of me since i am his child. (i will say, there are some weirdos out there, and those get a mean mug and the I AM NOT THE ONE FACE!!)
of course, living in todays world not everyone is here to be loved. some want to hunt us and hurt us. so always use judgment. the eyes are a great place to start. and always use your God given intuition. it will never lead you astray.
i just want every HUMAN to know that if you are going through any anxiety or depression. you are not AlONE. you deserve all that’s good in the WORLD. I LOVE YOU AND GOD LOVES YOU. you are not LOST. LOVE will find YOU. and that’s starts with LOVING YOURSELF FIRST.
I 🙏 PRAY YOU FEEL❤️🩹. I PRAY YOU DEAL🤝. I PRAY🤲 YOU HEAL.
People who love themselves, don’t hurt other people. The more we hate ourselves, the more we want others to suffer.Dan Pearce
let that sink in for a minute or an hour… however long it takes you to process profound nuggets of wisdom. i am patient by virtue, so take your time. let me know when it hits and you are tapped in.
ohhhh look at you, you’re a fast learner. GREAT FOR YOU!! and ME actually, cause i have zero tolerance for slow learners.
ANYWHO, back to the subject at hand.
let’s get started…
ONE RULE!! no exceptions to this rule so it might as well be a LAW at this point.
BOTTOM LINE: HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE!!! that is a FACT, not FICTION. this is the TRUTH, not a LIE.
when you feel anger, pain, guilt, shame, fear, all those emotions that are energy filled. that, then can manifest into negative energy that then gets projected out into the world. (you must always process your hurt energy. take the time you need to internalize it and get THE F$$K OVER IT. basically, cry a river, build a bridge, and walk, run, sprint..the form is insignificant) the more pain. the greater the lesson. and when you forgive the teacher/lost soul, you will be blessed abundantly. blessings on blessings.
it gets easier the more hurt you endure. trust ME. i am literally a PRO at overcoming adversity. i come back 10x stronger with a GLOW and a SWAG they would kill for.
but that’s neither here nor there.
it is your job to handle your SHIT!! no one deserves your passive aggressive projections thrown at them like darts. and you throw like shit. you hurt the ones you love and care for the most. and even innocent bystanders, who did nothing to you… but BREATHE. WHY?? because we know that they are sadly not going anywhere. they by default have to be your emotional punching bag. and they aren’t even aware they signed up for it. sounds quite deceiving on your end, when i say it like that…. doesn’t IT!!
SO CHANGE, GOSH DAGNIT!!
SORRY…. i am very passionate about this….Woooosahhhhh!!!
it is not to say that when you learn to love yourself, your problems go away.
it is when you love yourself, you always lead with your heart. you would not even fathom hurting others because you are hurting. what kind of jailhouse logic is that. i mean it’s actually mean spirited. your hurt should be the reason to love. simply because you know what pain feels like and you would not want anyone you love OR that crosses your path to ever feel that!!
if you are not a mean spirited individual, what would be the purpose on intentionally hurting someone else that did nothing to you, but cross your path. or are they are too happy for your liking that day.
when you can find love in your hurt. that is PURE STRENGTH from The Creator.
at the end of the day, we are all on a spiritual path. a lil compassion would be SPLENDID. at the end of the day, we are all lost souls trying to find our way home. some of us just have better maps and never hit traffic.(but that is another rabbit hole we will venture down later, baby steps peeps)
SHALL WE continue….WE SHALL
they say when people you LOVE and care for push you away and try and keep you at arms length. that is when you should LOVE ON THEM THE MOST. that is when you do not give up on them..most likely than not, they just want to know that when they are ready and that you are there for them…regardless, and UNCONDITIONALLY (well especially if you didn’t do anything wrong, if you DID..be the bigger person and APOLOGIZE..it is more for you…trust ME)
i happen to stand by this statement. all of us weren’t made naturally as communicators. with all this technology, can you blame them. i get anxious just thinking about it….eeeeeeek!!!
my point is that we have to be patient with the ones that we love and matter the most. especially the LOYAL ONES. we must show compassion, kindness, and the greatest of all, LOVE!! and unconditional LOVE, not that love with conditions and rules and pros and cons type shit!
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is just that UNCONDITIONAL….no boundaries, forgiveness no matter what, (yes i said that shit, no matter what…now don’t be a door mat..i would never condone that. there is levels to this ish)
LIKE ATTRACTS LIKE…. so when you exude love on a daily basis you will receive LOVE ON A DAILY BASIS. it becomes a natural pull of love and balance. it is a miraculous divine attraction to witness and be a part of. it is almost like you are part of this collective that gets to experience something others can not and never will be able to tap in to.
well…….i forgot one detail…..we CAN ALL TAP IN…..it isn’t that exclusive. i might have over exaggerated a teeny bit. got caught in the moment…MY BAD! dang!!!
soooooo if time is an illusion like THEY say, then you are right on TIME.
WORK ON THAT HEART OF YOURS. HEAL YOUR INNER CHILD. SHE/HE IS SCREAMING TO COME OUT. DON’T TAKE YOURSELF SO SERIOUSLY. LIVE LIFE, DON’T ever let LIFE LIVE YOU!!!
Prayer works and speak aloud. The Creator knows your heart already so ask him for help and he will answer you. you hold up your end of the bargain and HE will too. if your family is the issue, you must be the one to initiate the change. be the good you want and the goodness you want in return. they may not like the real you but they will respect you, nonetheless. before you know it, they will catch up to your campaign. once they see the changes and how your life and everything around you is changing for the greatest good. they will subscribe. TRUST….POSITIVITY IS CONTAGIOUS!!! and CONSISTENCY IS KEY🔑
IT ONLY TAKES ONE PERSON TO GENERATE CHANGE.
when you have certainty in your beliefs. what you hold dear in your core you breath out in words that make anyone who crosses your path feel better than when they left you. carrying yourself in a way, thats mesmerizing to watch. it seems like everything they do is so effortless. being around their energy makes you feel like HOME. being in their presence makes you feel protected and safe without any of those words uttered. they always have perfect words that make you feel at ease. you naturally gravitate to them without even a thought. just being in their SUN shine for a couple hours gives you positive vibes of rays that last for days.
THIS IS HOW YOU KNOW, YOU ARE BEING LOVED BY A HEART WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE…..
MAY WE ALL SEEK IT. MAY WE ALL FIND IT.
and most of all
MAY WE ALL BE IT!!
my Kabbalah teacher sent our entire class this audio hours after i posted this. The Creator always knows how to send me my signs. ❤️💡🌟🙏✌️