the moment i realized how valuable my energy is, was the same moment i started investing in myself. self care is the best care. and i doubled down. all i ever needed was mySELF. faith in mySELF, belief in mySELF, kindness to mySELF and know my worth to mySELF.
i am what is known as a HSP(highly sensitive person, a highly sensitive person (HSP) is someone who is thought to have an increased or deeper central nervous system sensitivity to physical, emotional, or social stimuli. Some refer to this as having sensory processing sensitivity, or SPS for short).
high sensitivity is a personality trait that involves increased responsiveness to both positive and negative influences. social stress is perceived as more taxing to most people than other types of stress. this kind of stress can be particularly difficult for someone who can perceive many different ways that things could go wrong in a conflict, for example, or can perceive hostility or tension where others may not notice it. so in short it’s a curse and a blessing. but i go with the blessing and turn that into my super power. so i changed HSP to mean HEIGHTENED SUPER POWER. the acronym hasn’t been approved yet, so don’t quote me.
i have always been sensitive and also have been told by family, when i was younger that, you guessed it. “you’re too sensitive”. in my younger years it wasn’t hard at all to get me going. ask my brother. he was the epitome of what it is to have a BIG BROTHER. he took all his frustration out on me verbally but when he was hurt, i never turned my back on him. now if that’s not the definition of BROTHERLY LOVE, i don’t know what is. the proverbial joke was always on ME.
so how did i become to be a part of a collective of HSP superhero’s. you guessed it again.
having gone through some darkness made me perceptive. i had a glimpse at a very young age of what the world was really like and who i did not want to be. i knew then, that what happened to me would never happen to anyone i bring into this 🌍 earth.. NAHHHH… not on my watch, NEVAAAA..
The Creator and The Divine Universe had bigger plans for me and instilled in me a resilience you can only dream of. the darker the adversary the stronger i got. but underneath the armor i donned i remained humble and still. as i got older i started to see how i changed around certain people. like some friends made me feel less than or others i would have immense energy around. i was not aware that some were only around to steal my energy, so i wouldn’t feel my self. the others added and or matched my energy. so it intensified. i was always magnetically drawn to my energy matchers. their vibe was my vibe. their flow was my flow.
CHILD HOOD TRAUMA.
as i evolved i realized who was worth my energy. i realized my energy is worth it’s weight in gold. my energy is my SUPER POWER. and it should always be treated as such.
beware of the energy vamps
they are the ones that know the true value of your energy and will suck you dry. just being around them will leave you feeling worthless and depressed. the only way to get a refund on that energy is to cut the cord that attaches you. forgive them…i know, here i go again with that forgiveness bs again. it works gosh darn it, forgive yourself. and love them from afar. you can’t save everyone unfortunately. but you can make a choice to save yourself. just like they had a choice to not be a ENERGY VAMP. but tomato, tomatoe. that’s neither here nor there.
in this world, on this earth we all have a CHOICE. you have to treat your energy like currency. it holds all that is your essence. it holds all your POWER. not everyone is deserving to be in your energy when they don’t appreciate its value. it’s like giving your energy out at a discounted price. your energy is PRICELESS.
i treat my energy like it’s a BASQUIAT one of ones (for those who don’t know who Jean-Michel Basquiat is…his paintings go for over 8million, JayZ has an original in his kitchen, where his kids eat cheerios) i have to sus you out before you can even get an ounce of my energy. i know what my energy is worth and most can’t even afford a milliliter of it.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR ENERGY IS WORTH??
if i were you i would start doing the math. you may need to cut some attachment cords and get your energy refunds A$AP ROCKY.
dear 📔diary, to whom it may concern: hang around with at least one person that challenges you to be BETTER.
in this game of life we encounter many different souls. some are in our lives for a lifetime, a season, but always for a reason.
i encourage everyone to find that friendship or relationship that challenges you to be a better person. that one person you can rely on, to not sugar coat the truth. that one person that gives it to you straight up and raw with no chaser. this is what our everyday lives needs more of. we can find YES people everywhere. they’re the real dime a dozen. i want MY person to tell me what i already know, it’s just that hearing them say it makes me believe more in myself and my God given intuition, that we sometimes ignore. finding new admiration in MY person because if they care enough to know what MY soul and body truly needs versus what would make me temporarily happy or give me instant gratification. and risk giving in to ME for the greater good of MY MIND,BODY AND SOUL. if the latter describes someone in your present.
well then you have found said person.
we are attracted to different souls for different things. not all humans in our lives can give us all we need. so we tend to collect different humans in our lives for certain situations and issues and things. i am guessing you want examples.
so lets say you want to go to the club…you call apple butter cause she loves to dance and she is down for whateve’s. then maybe, you want to drive by your boyfriend’s house because he is not answering and you got in a fight earlier. so you call peanut butter cause she is about that life and she is your ride or die. but if shit ever hits the fan and you need advice that you know will be on the money, you call ME!!! jk. no seriously, CALL ME… i am a great listener… i am one of the few beings left on this earth that truly love bringing YOU back to EARTH. (it gives me great internal pleasure and one of my many skills and gifts The Creator blessed me with)
SOOOO GET IT…GOT IT….GOOOOOD!!!
so we must make sure that in our roster of humans, that we have that one who challenges US. that one who by witnessing who they are as a person inspires YOU to be BETTER. as humans we will always remember how other humans makes us feel about ourselves. no one wants to be around someone who makes us feel less than or someone that nags at us or makes fun of us at our own expense. or who points out our flaws in an attempt to make us feel insecure 😞.
WE NEED MORE FRIENDS WHO WILL HOLD US ACCOUNTABLE, solely because they truly want what is BEST FOR US!!
WE NEED MORE HUMANS THAT WILL GUIDE US TO BE BETTER VERSIONS OF OURSELVES EVERYDAY. SO WE CAN COLLECTIVELY PLACE MORE LOVE IN THIS WORLD THAN HURT.
we should all be fans of souls who love US for US. we should all be fans of giving that same love we receive from them with the purest of intentions.
and lastly, we should all be STANS of the ☝️ONES of ONES☝️ who challenge US like no other, love US like NO OTHER, and will be there for US like no other. and help us GROW LIKE NO OTHER. OH, and they would never ABANDON US. they will always be by our side through thick and thin, the beautiful and the disasters. healing and pain. for the sole purpose of the unconditional love they see in us and they possess in their hearts as well. because knowing one is to be ONE. and on this journey together they are helping us level up into the Spiritual Beings we are all meant to BE!!
i am appreciative of you. i am grateful for you. i am inspired by YOU!!
💡LIGHT and ❤️LOVE wherever you 😎vibe and 🌹flow.
dear 📔 diary, to whom it may concern: everyone suffers from some type of anxiety or depression….everyONE!!
Going through Anxiety or Depression or any other Psychological Condition doesn’t make you unloveable-it makes you HUMAN.Seth J Gillihan
WE ARE HUMAN.
most importantly we are ONE!!
we MUST be compassionate, patient and kind to every HUMAN we come in contact with. regardless of race, gender, economic status, demographic, sexual preference, social status. whatever bias society has created that we then fall victim to and use to divide us. we MUST be accepting of ALL HUMANS.
this is not a suggestion, this should be our main focus on the DAILY!! (but don’t take my advice, i just want to better your life… so once again. I COME IN ☮️ PEACE✌️)
all humans brought to this Earth are fighting an internal battle we sometimes couldn’t even fathom. some in public. most in private. but it is a battle that we choose to overcome, nonetheless, hopefully in this lifetime.
since we are in an era of such darkness along with all these advancements in technology it creates Mental Disorders, that are more prevalent than ever before.
i always say the BRAIN is a powerful muscle. if it isn’t conditioned properly and given the “nutrients” and “workout” that it needs to grow with us and for us. and instead is filled with negativity from social media, beliefs that are put on us by society and just garbage that are but on us by labels and false narratives. it becomes our worst enemy.
pharmaceuticals may work but that should only be used for a short term. it is only putting a band aid on what the root cause is. if you do not get to the root cause of your programmed negative thinking. ask yourself…when was the first time i felt this way?? and really dig deep and do the work required. you will never fully HEAL. you will be stuck in a cycle of up and downs your entire life. but then we are made to believe that you need more pharmaceuticals or you have to up your dose. your body is becoming immune. (yeah, immune to the BS)
society as a whole has failed many of us. and we need to take our power back. we need to heal ourselves which then in a whole heals others and it’s a chain of healing that’s literally generational. it’s breaking curses that go back thousands of years. (don’t believe me, read a BOOK… i dare YOU!)
if all humans were just a tad more aware of how they treated every human they came in contact with. (ummm, i’m pretty positive that we would have an active hand in healing the WORLD!! NO CAP!!)
the fact that humans base their mental health off of how they should be loved should show us just how much more LOVE we should give to EVERY HUMAN PERIOD!! (but, NOOOO we do the opposite, cause that makes all the sense)
i embrace everyone around me with a smile and love in my heart because that is what The Creator would do and expects the same of me since i am his child. (i will say, there are some weirdos out there, and those get a mean mug and the I AM NOT THE ONE FACE!!)
of course, living in todays world not everyone is here to be loved. some want to hunt us and hurt us. so always use judgment. the eyes are a great place to start. and always use your God given intuition. it will never lead you astray.
i just want every HUMAN to know that if you are going through any anxiety or depression. you are not AlONE. you deserve all that’s good in the WORLD. I LOVE YOU AND GOD LOVES YOU. you are not LOST. LOVE will find YOU. and that’s starts with LOVING YOURSELF FIRST.
I 🙏 PRAY YOU FEEL❤️🩹. I PRAY YOU DEAL🤝. I PRAY🤲 YOU HEAL.
dear 📔 diary, to whom it may concern: the EGO will have you thinking and believing all types of $h|t…
growing up in a predominantly white town in my teens. and being literally one of 4 who were Spanish. (and one was a cousin by marriage) you would think my EGO would be on overdrive.
like OVERCOMPENSATION BOULEVARD.
i never felt less than. never felt any lack or like i didn’t fit in. i am mutable which means i can adapt to my habitat rarely quickly. i was lucky my ego and pride rarely got in my way. fortunately for me, working on my ego wasn’t on my souls lesson list. cause the ego is a doozy to overcome. but like anything in life it can be done with some hard work and lots of VODKA and a mild sedative!!(just kidding)…(kinda)
being raised by a strong personality like my Mother who taught me that you never let anyone tell you who you are.
YOU SHOW THEM WHO YOU ARE!!
i’ve always had this “je ne sais quoi” that could charm the uncharmed. honestly, i believe my gift of gab and knowledge of the randomest facts helped. but the latter sounds better. and who doesn’t ❤️ LOVE the french language. (i wanna see the eiffel tower so bad)
humans tend to overcompensate when they feel lack. when we feel attacked, embarrassed, hurt, defensive. our ego takes over. instead of pausing and receiving what your hearing. making the choice not to fight fire with fire. instead call on The Creator and i promise you, your response will be of a place that puts that fire out. our ego tests us everyday. not being REACTIVE IS KEY to putting a monsoon of water on the fire of energy that is the ego. this is a skill that with work you can master. why it’s not an instantaneous action that happens. well, that’s an EGO thing.
to feel better and feed the ego you think you need to impress people or think you do in order to have to save face so people don’t think your soft or losing your appeal. as a defense mechanism it makes you feel, see, hear, say things that aren’t even there. it’s like it has a mind of its own. that’s cause it does. THE EGO IS PART OR US. sometimes i wish it would SHUT TF UP!! no one asked you EGO!!
SOMEONE NEEDS TO TELL EGO TO PIPE TF DOWN!!
but the EGO is around to teach us life lessons. and if we care enough to pay attention to how we feel when our EGO is triggered. we can heal past child hood trauma, family issues, inner child release and break generational curses. with any trauma that is cured and released your doing not only yourself but all of your relationships benefit immensely from this. so let’s start doing this work. we are ONE at the end of the day. all curses broken now benefit all generations in the future. let’s not repeat learned behavior. that then just carries on. WHEN WE HEAL WE FEEL AND DEAL WITH IT. at the end of that is TRANSFORMATION. IT WILL ONKY MAKE YOU A BETTER HUMAN.
I AM THE BOSS OF ME, EGO… (repeat that 3x NOW, your welcome) don’t ever let it make you feel something you know is wrong, hurtful, evil or even detrimental to your health and well being.
YOU ONLY HAVE TO IMPRESS YOURSELF!!
KICK LITERAL ROCKS,EGO!! your ego. your pride will be your downfall if you don’t have the skills to silence it. you have to have balance. find what triggers you, get to the issue of why it triggers you and get the ❤️🩹HEALING ❤️🩹
YOU WILL THANK ME LATER!!
what others think of you is none of your business. you can’t control that. soooo…who GIVES A MONKEY SHIT. they don’t pay your bills and why does their opinion even matter that much?? ones that talk the most shit live in houses of the cheapest (i’m insinuating that it breaks easily, in case you didn’t catch it) GLASS!! they talk SHIT cause they are unhappy ☹️!!
Happy 😃 PEOPLE don’t do that. they are too busy living their lives and and worrying about their own.
when you start working on yourself, you realize the only person you have to impress is yourself! YOU ARE YOUR WORST ENEMY ANYWAY, so that’s who needs the impressing!!
FOLLOW ME NOW!!
the minute you make the connection that your ego is what holds your trauma and triggers. the moment you make that connection that feeding your ego only starves your growth.
YOU WILL NEVER FEEL THE NEED TO NEVER USE YOUR EGO AS A DEFENSE MECHANISM!!